title:you'll always have them.
date:Wednesday, July 04, 2007 | Wednesday, July 04, 2007
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Now now... I know this entry will get a little boring and all, but I guess it's because I don't really share with you all how I feel and think all the time. Bear with me. ( I have a pretty good reason as to why I'm even sharing this. Fast forward to the end if you can't wait.)
So today I had a pretty alright day till the last two periods of today. Then, everything triggered off. Literally. Firstly, I am really proud of Camellia for topping class 3/8 of 2006 and she'll be at speech day.(: Loveyoulotss&loadsmycrazyglamoroushyperactivesittingbuddy.<3
And so, I was sitting at my place thinking of new stuff to draw with Camellia and I decided to write her a letter. In it, I wrote about how there were and still have been times where I feel like giving up and just running away from all of this. Most of the time, I just swallow everything and hope I never throw them out. It's painful, but I'd rather do that than to say something I might not mean to whoever that might be nearby. Honestly, I do know that in life, nothing comes easy, but trying to be contented with the things I have already, gets harder and harder like a pile of books on your head. (then, I get a headache).
Struggling through this journey of education has been one of the bigger struggles I've been through thus far. I'm still fine with it as far as I'm concern. And out of everything, I am most thankful for my friends in school, my careteam, my brother and not forgetting God. Friends like Camellia, Chloe, Ethel, Eileen and sometimes Stephanie. Never fail to make me smile each and every single day of school. Cheering me up when I'm uber duper super down with whatever. Lending a listening ear to the words that come out of my mouth.(:
My careteam, most referred to the girls. Chen Ting, Cheryl Soh, Charmaine, Melanie Tan and Olivia. You all are the ones I go to, to unload all the crap that's been going on throughout my life and not just one week. Without each and every one of you, I would have been choked up with my problems, spritually and physically. To the guys, Kenneth Quek, Chen Yi, Gareth, Heng Min, Nehemiah, Brian Soh and Louis. You guys provide the careteam with your lameatonic jokes and funny comments.(: Can't imagine careteam without you all.
My brother, sometimes you're such a pain in the butt, but guess that's you job right? You're the ultra silent nagger. Pushing me forward everytime I stop to take a breath. Shawn, I must thank you for telling and encouraging me to work harder in my studies. As we grew up, the job of taking care of me has definitely weighed heavier on you but you don't seem to mind after a while. You make me laugh everytime we hang out. Crossing your eyes so you'll look weird or when we create new technics to chase away "chee ko pehs.". hahaha. It's these things I'll never forget. It's through you, I learn not to make the same mistakes.
To God, because I am such a clumsy person. I fall into worldly traps I don't even see, but you pull me out of it each time I do that. There's no other better way to describe what you mean to me.
I guess at my lowest, I feel like this. Especially when things fall apart and fix together again if you have faith. Contented. Yeah... that's the word. It's something I need to gradually learn to become as I grow up. A contented person. I want to remember that in every single point of my life, I experienced something new. Be it a new scolding, a new friend, a new school, a new lesson or a new stack of homework. Looking back, it's these things that make you who you will become and it's okay to feel the after effect of something new, though it hurts you sometimes. Hey, at least then we know that there's something to look forward to in the future. Like the person we might become. Everything is interlinked and in everything there is a good purpose. So chins up everybody, school aint so bad if you use it well. (: Nagging isn't so bad if you've still got a family to go back to. The house isn't such a mess if there's a home to live in. Have a contented week!(: (each day, I learn a new lesson just by blogging or writing about it.lol(: )
love love love
andreali