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title:toss and turn.
date:Monday, November 12, 2007 | Monday, November 12, 2007
Really Really tired out. Not quite sure why.Maybe it's due to all the recent events. Birthdays, moving house,personal struggles and upcoming activities. I know I'm drained.I know I've got Him, but really... how far will I go to pick myself off from thefloor and start doing something about it. What I want now, is to rearrangeold settings and see a different side of things. Right now, I just feel like spinning round and round the computer chair. Maybe for another minute. So while I'm spinning, I can think properlyin the blurrrrr of things. I need that now. Sometimes, I just want to buy an air ticket to somewhere quiet and just be alone for a while. Lay in the middle of a corn field or something, and just be merry like a kidagain. That would be great. But, I know I can't run. It's too small a place to run about in. Someone will find me,and someone would be reality. So, I'm turning my eyes away from what I want to see infront of me, and I'mgoing to walk towards what I should be thankful for because in that reality,there's family, friends and all those who care about me. He gave that to me. I shouldnt complain. I mean, c'mon... I made myself a promise. Live each day like it's thelast. Things don't always go the way I want them to, because I'm not perfect. I just need to try, so at least I know that I've put in effort.Oh, and I must must must thank everyone who celebrated my 16th birthday with me andshowered me with lots of gifts,cards and love(:andrea