title:Our hearts are with you.
date:Monday, January 21, 2008 | Monday, January 21, 2008
Lots of things to think about today. About life being so brittle... funny thing, I just talked about it before I heard about the news to a friend this morning on the way to school. To my classmate who just lost her loved one, I'm sorry for your lost and I hope you remain strong and brave for him.
I feel slightly shaken by the fact that things come and go so quickly. That life itself is so unpredictable and yet we still take it for granted. Many times, I find myself taking the people around for granted. I'll admit that I do. I get upset and down when the weight of my struggles pull me down. I am guilty for all the horrible things I've done and though I've asked for forgiveness, I can never really get rid of the scars left on me. I guess they serve as reminders. Because it is only when I look at those scars, I am reminded what not to do, what to take note of and avoid.
As time goes by, I start to have a better understanding of why I do the things I do, and somehow... I'm getting a clearer view of my purpose in life. That everything happens for a reason.
I feel slightly shaken by the fact that things come and go so quickly. That life itself is so unpredictable and yet we still take it for granted. Many times, I find myself taking the people around for granted. I'll admit that I do. I get upset and down when the weight of my struggles pull me down. I am guilty for all the horrible things I've done and though I've asked for forgiveness, I can never really get rid of the scars left on me. I guess they serve as reminders. Because it is only when I look at those scars, I am reminded what not to do, what to take note of and avoid.
As time goes by, I start to have a better understanding of why I do the things I do, and somehow... I'm getting a clearer view of my purpose in life. That everything happens for a reason.
Yeah... my mum screams at me a lot, but I can never get enough of saying " I love you" to her.
My dad makes silly comments sometimes, but I don't want him to stop making those funny laughter worthy jokes. My brother disturbs me with that little white bear, but now... if I ask him to go away, I'll be too afraid to say that. Too afraid I'll never get to laugh with all of them, or be able to look at them again...
Then again, somewhere deep within me, I know that when the time comes where I have to stop looking at them and stop laughing with them, I'll still be able to see them again soon. I know it.
And all those struggles I am facing now and later, I'll get through them. I will because I have Him.
My dad makes silly comments sometimes, but I don't want him to stop making those funny laughter worthy jokes. My brother disturbs me with that little white bear, but now... if I ask him to go away, I'll be too afraid to say that. Too afraid I'll never get to laugh with all of them, or be able to look at them again...
Then again, somewhere deep within me, I know that when the time comes where I have to stop looking at them and stop laughing with them, I'll still be able to see them again soon. I know it.
And all those struggles I am facing now and later, I'll get through them. I will because I have Him.
holding on-
andrea